I always like to aim high. I had manifested this moment. The stage was set. My preparation was complete. 3x World Titles was not an easy goal, but I was willing to put in the work. It was time for me to achieve my dream – my third consecutive WBFF Bikini World Title.
But… it wasn’t to be.
At first I was overwhelmed and didn’t really know what I felt. Then, I was confused. Then, disappointed. I’d just failed to achieve my goal and lost the competition that I’d poured my heart and soul into winning.
The more I thought about it, the more I realised that these surface emotions were normal, but they weren’t how I truly felt about the experience. I needed time to download my emotions. I do believe that everything happens for a reason, and I’m writing this to let you know how and why I was able to take the most out of this experience️
A few short years ago, I was a personal trainer and was studying a business degree at University. I would wake up at 4am to take my first boot camp, then train 3 clients, train myself, go home for a nap, then go back to the gym to train more clients. Somewhere in between this I would study and complete my degree. I had fallen in love with fitness and was doing every single thing I could to become the best trainer I could be. As hard as it was, I loved my lifestyle and promised never to feel sorry for myself. I put myself in that situation and knew that it was what I needed to be doing.
In 2016, I decided to compete in my ever fitness competition. It was an amateur WBFF show on the Gold Coast. My decision to compete was to give myself a challenging goal and see how my body would change. I went into that show with no expectations of winning. It was all a learning experience.
I won that show, and won my WBFF Pro Card. I loved it so much that I went on to compete at the WBFF Worlds Event, and I won that too. I didn’t have many social media followers or and BBR was still so new, but I knew one thing: I wanted to show females from all over the world that fitness can make them feel the same way it made me feel.
I went back to defend my crown at the WBFF Worlds 2017 in London, and won. I was awarded as the 2x WBFF Bikini World Champion. It was such an amazing feeling. There is nothing like being on stage and showing the world what you have worked so hard to create.
I was so proud of the package I created this year. I felt like I had been working towards this body my whole life. I’d worked so hard to grow my glutes, shrink my waist and maintain a toned, feminine shape. I knew that I created what was my dream body, and I was damn proud of myself. I couldn’t wait to get on stage and share it with the world.
But this year, I didn’t win. I didn’t get the euphoric feeling of being crowned 3x Bikini World Champion. Instead, I got a different experience and one that I am truly grateful for. Just as I was a gracious winner, I learned how to be gracious in defeat. I learned that my mindset is my most powerful tool and that sometimes life needs to test us in order for us to understand what we are truly capable of.
Winning and losing doesn’t always depend on the outcome. We will never find happiness and success in our lives if we are competing against others. It is only when we truly understand ourselves, our purpose and be honest with ourselves that we can truly control our happiness. We are all dealt different cards, but we all have the ability to control how we react to situations and I believe that we are all responsible for the way that we feel. Happiness is a mindset. Positivity is a choice. Our minds need to be trained just like our bodies!
This experience has been a very defining one in my life. I am honestly learning so much about the person I am and the person I am becoming. It’s ultimately how we deal with the problems/obstacles/hardships in our lives that define who we are. In every situation in life we are faced with a choice. We can either confront and overcome situations and use their lessons to make us stronger, better people, or we can let the situation overcome us. This is much easier said than done, and it can take time for us to overcome the things we are faced with. However I do believe that ultimately, we are in control! This is why I focus so much on mindset both in my life and in my Challenges. When we are in a healthy headspace and truly understand the power of our thoughts, we can achieve anything!
“Life is a series of experiences, each one of which makes us bigger, even though sometimes it’s hard for us to realise this. For the world was built to develop character, and we must learn that the setbacks and grieves which we endure help us in our marching onward”
I am so grateful for all the love and support that I’ve received from you all. It’s a truly special feeling to be so connected to this amazing community – you mean more to me than words could ever describe! BBR has my heart! The messages I received from you gave me goosebumps and reminded me about what is truly important to me. My mission is to help each and everyone of you not only achieve your health and fitness goals, but to learn to love and believe in yourselves. You inspire me on a daily basis to be the best I can be and I love you all so much for that!
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I know it’s a little longer, but this is so emotional for me and I felt a responsibility to let my BBR girls know exactly how I felt.
Thank you for being a part of BBR. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for being exactly who you are.
I am so thrilled to share this journey with you.
Are you ready to build your best bikini body?